I have confidence in sunshine...

I was looking through facebook, as I procrastinated from doing my uni work, and a friend of mine had posted a status, highlighting to the world that he had an exam today.

However, it wasn't the normal statuses you see, such as:

"Ergh, exams"
"Only 5 days of sorrow left"
"I have seriously not revised enough!"
"Life is so unfair"

Over the last few weeks, those are the kinds of messages I have seen constantly pop up on my news feed. Yet, my friend chose a different sentiment:

"Bring it on!"

He was inspired by Psalm 20:7 - "some trust in chariots, and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God"

Now, I have very little confidence in myself with anything, to the point where I procrastinate from working to stop feeling like such a failure (then feel worse later for being lazy etc etc). I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder in my late teens. There are a million and one places I would rather be than an exam room.

But God bless me with gifts. He blessed me with the passion to do my degree, the mind to succeed at it, and the will to carry on. I can do anything with him on my side. I trust that he will stand beside me as I face my demons, even if they are as insignificant in the long run as writing an essay on a piece of paper quickly.

So, I might not have confidence in me, to contradict Maria Von Trapp, but I do have confidence in the man who creates the sunshine and rain, so it is fair to say, I am in good hands. So, I shall go into my exams singing the song from The Sound of Music, and praise the Lord for his confidence in me, if only to help me go into it with a smile, and feeling a little less wound up!

S x